15 Weeks And A Weekend Trip

Well, today I am 15 weeks pregnant! Only 175 days to go! I know it sounds like a lot, but that 1st trimester went by so fast I assume the rest of it will too. This week Bean will get up to the size of an orange! (4 in, 2.5 oz) All four limbs are now functional and are moving like crazy! To my sadness though, I cannot feel it yet. :( I have started to get my energy back a little bit, but I have had a nasty cold for the past few weeks so have still been sleeping. The nausea went away, minus yesterday when I ate something for dinner that Bean did not like and decided to tell me that quite meanly. Which we are going to have to have a talk about in Sept. because I enjoyed that dinner very much! Tonight after dinner I am feeling a little nauseated as well, so who knows. My baby bump is starting to show, but still feels/looks bigger to me than it does to anyone else. lol Your picture is posted below. :)

This weekend Carey and I had the privilege to travel to Macon to visit with family and friends. We were very excited as we have not been back in 2 years. It was wonderful to see so many familiar places and faces. :) We were able to relax and enjoy time visiting with his parents. We had a great time and definitely will not let it be another 2 years before we visit again! ;)

Tonight we went to Target to get some groceries and decided to check out the electronics section. Carey's birthday present from his parents was a video camera, but the one we looked at this weekend was out of stock. :( So we decided just to check at Target to see what they offered, and much to our surprise, there was a camera and on sale! :) You know we can't beat a good sale! :) We are super excited and feel very blessed to be able to record our child growing up and share all those moments with family. :) Thanks Mom and Dad! :)

I had a rough night last night with coming in late and then getting sick, so I couldn't sleep at all. Needless to say, it was a rough night and this morning was quite difficult. So my sweet husband decided to bring me home some beautiful flowers. :) He loves me. :)

12 Weeks!

Today we are 12 weeks! Woo-hoo! Everything really still feels the same. LOL I am pretty excited that we have reached the "glorious" second trimester! I am hoping that it is as wonderful as everyone says it is. I'm ready to feel somewhat "normal" again, but also get to where we can actually feel Bean moving around. I am so looking forward to that day! We have another Dr's appointment next Monday afternoon to check and make sure everything is still doing well. We will be at 13 weeks then. Hopefully we'll get another picture! :)

In other news, I am traveling to Florida this weekend for Caitlin's wedding! YAY! The only downside is I will be taking this trip solo as Carey as class all weekend. I know. Sad. :( I'm excited to see everyone though, BUT I am not looking forward to the train ride that I will be taking to get there. I have taken the train to Florida in the Fall, but I was not pregnant. I am hoping that the lovely sensitivities that have been gladly showing their pretty faces this first trimester will give me a break this coming weekend so I can just enjoy the ride and then my time with family and friends! Here's hoping!

Here are some belly pictures for those of you who want to see! The first one is from 7 weeks, just to document. The second one is from today, 12 weeks. I feel much bigger than I look and that I am gaining unnecessary weight, but I guess that goes with the territory. lol We'll see, hopefully I can keep the weight gain down!

11 Weeks Today!

So I know I haven't posted like I said I would or like I want to, but truth is, I mostly see the back of my eyelids lately.

When telling people you are pregnant, all they tell you is how excited they are for you. Which is compoletely fine and I am very excited as well, but they don't tell you how difficult the first trimester can be. I am unbelievably exhausted the majority of the day 7 days a week. I get up tired and hungry, work with children all day and am hungry, come home and either have dinner then take a nap or take a nap, have dinner, and then go to bed. Poor Carey. All he gets to do is watch me sleep. Although, he is getting a lot of his school work done. :) There are few times when I have spurts of energy, but they don't last very long. My body is starting to really feel the fact that a baby is growing inside of me. I am starting to feel the stretching and it is such a weird feeling! I am sick off and on, but when it is on, it is rough. Not that I am complaining too much because with Baby #1 I was not sick at all. So the sickness, although terrible, is welcomed. Some days. My hormones have completely gone haywire!! Poor Carey has to deal with my drastic mood swings. And let me tell you, that man can take them like a champ! :) He has been very sweet in all that he does to take care of me. He really is my Superman. :)

I am beginning to get a little bump, which is super fun! The only downside became evident in Sunday School on Sunday morning. I needed something out of my purse and bent down to get it and it was extremely uncomfortable to do so. Carey now does a lot of the picking things up for me. :) We have thoroughly enjoyed getting to see pictures of our Bean so early this time. Being high risk, I have gone in to check on Bean every 3 weeks starting at 6 1/2 weeks. It has been very beneficial to my worrying side. I am constantly worrying about whether or not Bean is still around and healthy. I know that with the miscarriage last year, worrying is completely normal, but it is maddening! I am just so ready to hold that sweet baby in my arms and see Carey pour his love on our baby too.

We have been very blessed with such wonderful friends who are just as excited about Bean as we are. We got a surprise yesterday when we visited some friends of ours and it is sitting in our living room ready to be assembled. They gave us the 4 in 1 convertable crib that I have had my eye on. It was such a blessing! I definitely cried. We are just so blessed in so many ways and that was just one more added to the list. We are very blessed to have them for such great friends and that love us like we are family.

Well, there is a lot more going through my head right now, but I seem to be rambling along as it is, so I better stop. Hopefully I will keep up with my weekly posts for those of you who actually read this. :)

Baby should get up to the size of a lime this week.

Only 2 weeks left in the first trimester!!!! :) I've read and been told that the second trimester is like a walk in the park. Bring it on! :)

2 + 1 = 3

On January 11, 2011 (snow day), Carey and I found out that we were pregnant again! It was a very anticipated moment, but nervewracking all at once. After our experience with our last pregnancy, we were both a little nervous. I was a very scared that we would have another miscarriage and it took talking to a wonderful friend to remind me that God is the giver of life and I needed to celebrate the life that was in me. No matter how long it was around. After that conversation, I began to become very excited and could hardly keep it a secret! Carey and I wanted to tell everyone, but wanted to wait until we saw that baby was growing this time. Today was that day. I have been having a lot of nausea, which I have never been excited about before, but I enjoyed it everytime because it was a good sign. :)

It's positive!

This morning when I woke up, my mind was racing with what could happen today. When we arrived at the doctor's office my nerves went crazy! My mind was racing! I just wanted to rush the ultrasound room and get it over with. We met with the prenatal nurse first who was super sweet and very encouraging. She gave us a lot of information and told us our due date, which is September 19. She told me a lot of things that I cannot eat, which wasn't fun, but I will sacrifice those foods for Baby! We finally got into the ultrasound room and my heart was racing! I had my hands over my eyes and just didn't want to look. I still see the image of our baby last year and I did not want to see that again. As soon as she was in, I heard this noise and didn't know what to think. I asked if it was my heartbeat because it sounded so normal and strong. The ultrasound tech said, "Nope. That's your baby's." The tears started streaming as I listened to Baby's heart beating. I then looked on the screen and saw this little heart fluttering. It was truly a blessing to hear and see. She continued to measure just about everything and was taking pictures for the doctor to analyze. She then printed a picture for us to have and I asked if we could hear the heartbeat again. She not only let us hear the heartbeat and watch it flutter, but she took a picture of the heartbeat waves for us. Carey and I are so excited and relieved to have heard the heartbeat. Our doctor wants to see me back in 3 weeks to check Baby again just to make sure he's still growing. It is such a relief to me that they are taking so many precautions this time because of my miscarriage.

Baby Bean at 6 1/2 weeks

Baby's heartbeat

6 1/2 weeks (I know my family wants to see!)

Pardon how rough I look. It has been a long day.

There are a few things I have learned so far:
- being tired is an understatement
- morning sickness is not limited to the morning :/
- the smell of chicken and I do not get along

I know there will be many more, but this is what I remember right now. :)

Thanksgiving

Well, life has been pretty crazy in the Wilson household. A lot of work, school, and then add in social activities. It has been a pretty crazy semester. For Thanksgiving we finally got to take a break and visit Carey's grandparents in Asheville, NC. I absolutely LOVE it there! The mountains are so beautiful. I love getting to spend time with the family as well. We don't get to get away for more than a day with Carey's job, so it was nice. Carey's parents also came up to spend the holiday with us as well. So we were able to spend time with all the family. It was a wonderful blessing. For those of you who like the pictures, here are a few!

Turkey and sweet potatoes! My fav! :)

Photo op! :)

This picture is my favorite! <3>

We are getting ready to host Christmas for my mom, dad, sister, and grandparents! I am very excited that we will get to have them in our home for Christmas this year. I just love Christmas!

Summer

Just in case you haven't noticed, I have not updated the blog all summer...so here is the update.

The Lord has really been teaching us a lot this summer. It has not been easy, but it has been a good time. Carey and I, with a group of people from our ministry at church under the leadership of our minister, read "Absolute Surrender" by Andrew Murray, "The Cost of Discipleship" by Dietrich Bonhoeffer, "The Pursuit of Holiness" by Jerry Bridges, and are about to start reading "The Complete Book of Discipleship" by Bill Hull.

First, if you haven't read these books, you need to. They are not easy books to get through at first because our flesh rises up and doesn't want to read them. At least for me it did. "Absolute Surrender" is now added to the list of books I must read every year along with "The Pursuit of Holiness." I have said many times that my life is in God's hands and I am living for Him. While reading this book, I realized that I was trying so hard to live for God that I was getting worn out. Because "I" was the problem. I never realized how prideful and selfish that I am until the Lord started revealing it to me in different areas of my life. Jesus is our example of how we are supposed to live and He surrendered Himself completely to the Father, even to the cross, so why do we feel we don't need to do the same? Because we don't want to! We don't want to be told we need to be nothing so Christ can be ALL because of our pride. But why would we want to live in our flesh which leads to death? Would you rather have death or life? Life is in Jesus after we deny ourselves and take up our cross to follow Him. So why do so many of us want to stay stuck in the flesh and on the side of death? Sounds silly, right? But yet so many are okay with staying there!

A verse that has been on our hearts for the summer is when God says to "Be holy because I am holy." We tend to quickly glance over this verse if not ignore it all together. But this is a command from God that we are to live holy lives. Can we truly live holy lives? Paul said that it was no longer him who lived, but Christ who lived within him. Was Christ not holy? If the Holy Spirit is within us then we should desire to live a holy life. Our sins should grieve us because they grieve the heart of God. Instead of trying to justify our sins and make excuses for them, we should repent and be grieved over them. In our pride and selfishness we tend to believe that this is about us. This is not about us people! This is about God. We are here to glorify Him, not ourselves. As soon as this became apparent to me, my perspective on everything changed. I definitely do not have it all together because the Lord is still working in my life and showing me things.

I have seen the Lord provide a job for me in a teaching position I did not apply for and then led me to another job that was not listed at the time. I applied for a fourth grade position, interviewed for fifth grade, got hired to teach fifth grade, and then was moved to third grade. It is very evident in the whole situation that the whole thing was dictated by Him and through Him. There are many people trying to get a job in education here in Wake County and it seems near impossible to get a job here. But the Lord provided one for me. It amazes me still how He works and how He takes care of me. Carey and I are continually being provided for, even in the little things. We are very thankful and blessed for how the Lord has provided and how He is working in our lives.

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